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What Does She Live On?

Part VI · Nourished and Kept

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She has been carried, hidden, wooed, brought to a place God Himself inhabits. But a person does not live by safety alone. A hiding place where you starve is no hiding place. And so, inevitably, comes the soberest question of this whole book, the question that every mother, every refugee, everyone with children in their arms asks first: what does she live on there? What does a whole people eat in a wilderness, a land where by definition nothing grows?

The text gives an answer, and it is a strange answer, for it keeps silent about exactly what you would want to know. It says: "that there they might nourish her" (Revelation 12:6), and a little further on: "where she is nourished" (12:14). She is nourished — but by whom? The first time it stands impersonally: "they nourish her", with no subject given, as though the food came out of nothing. The second time it stands passive: "she is nourished", with the emphasis on her, not on the hand that gives. Twice the nourishing hand is deliberately held in the shadow. It is not said that there is a kitchen, no storehouse, no cook. It says only that there is eating, and that she does not see to it herself.

And this is no carelessness in the text. It is exactly how it once went before. For there is a people that has been through this already — to be nourished in a wilderness by a hand it could not see.

It happened the first time at the exodus, in the weeks after the people had crossed the Sea of Reeds. The bread out of Egypt was gone, hunger struck, and the people grumbled. And the next morning something lay on the ground that had never lain there before: fine, round grains, like frost on the field. No one knew what it was. They asked one another, literally: man hu? — "what is that?" — and that astonished asking became its name: manna, "what-is-that". It had no sender, no origin you could point to; it simply lay there, every morning, until the sun melted it. God said of it: "Behold, I will rain bread from heaven for you" (Exodus 16:4). Bread that rains. Food coming out of the sky in a place where nothing grows. The nourishing hand stayed invisible; only the bread was there.

And God explained why He did it so — why bread you did not see coming, instead of a full storehouse. "He humbled you, and let you hunger, and fed you with manna [...] that He might make you know that man does not live by bread alone, but that man lives by everything that comes out of the mouth of YHWH" (Deuteronomy 8:3). The manna was a schooling. It taught the people the deepest thing a person can learn: that you do not live by what lies stored in your barn, but by what comes out of the mouth of God — that every loaf, even the ordinary one, falls in the end from His hand, and that whoever forgets this goes hungry in the midst of his abundance. The manna was also a test. God gave it "that I may test them, whether they will walk in My law or not" (Exodus 16:4), "to test you, to know what was in your heart" (Deuteronomy 8:2). That test concerns the woman in the wilderness too. That Revelation 12:17 marks the rest of her seed as those who keep the commandments of God does not rule out her own test.

And there was one rule attached to that manna that says everything about how God nourishes His people. You could not hoard it. Moses said: "Let no one leave any of it till the morning" — but some did it anyway, out of fear of tomorrow, and the next day "it bred worms and stank" (Exodus 16:19-20). Manna would not be hoarded. It came fresh, every day anew, and whoever tried to keep it to insure himself against the day of tomorrow was left with nothing but rot. You had to come again every morning, with empty hands, and trust that there would be more lying there. One day was an exception — before the Sabbath a double portion lay ready, and that one did keep — but the rule was: live by the day, gather what is given, and count on the Giver for tomorrow.

And this is why the text keeps silent about the nourishing hand: the woman is nourished as the people were then, with manna. Not with a cache laid in beforehand by someone, no larder stocked with tins for three and a half years, but with bread that lies on the ground each morning anew from an invisible hand. Her safety in the wilderness hangs not on what has been stored, but on Who nourishes there. And this is why the verb stands passive: she is nourished. She grows nothing, hunts nothing, hoards nothing. Her only task is that of the people in the first wilderness — to come again each morning and receive what lies there.

And here the wilderness touches something that every person knows in the depths of his unrest. For the fear that comes in the night is almost always the fear of tomorrow: how will I manage, what if it runs out, what if soon there is nothing left lying there? And the manna is God's answer to precisely that fear, and it is a stern and tender answer at once. Stern, because He refuses to give you a store that would make you independent of Him; He gives no barn filled full, for a full barn teaches you to trust the barn instead of Him. And tender, because in its place He gives something better: Himself, every morning anew, faithful as the dawn. This is why the Son later prayed not "give us a store for the year", but "give us this day our daily bread" (Matthew 6:11) — that is a manna-prayer, the prayer of one who has learned to live by the day out of a hand that has never once skipped a morning.

Perhaps you count your store and see that it will not suffice — too little money, too little strength, too few days to carry all that is coming at you. Then this is what the woman in the wilderness has to say to you: you do not live by your store. You live by everything that comes out of the mouth of God, and that does not run out. The hand that nourishes stays invisible, but it is there every morning, and it asks only one thing of you — that you come, with empty hands, and receive what lies there. The God who nourished a whole people forty years long in a land without harvest, and who promises to nourish His woman in a wilderness where nothing grows, does not intend to skip the very first morning with you.

She is nourished, every day anew, out of a hand she does not see. But that hand has more than one way.

The workbenchThe Hidden Giver — trephō, the Manna, and the Anti-Store

The verb for "to nourish" in both verses is trephō. In 12:6 it stands in an impersonal plural (hina trephōsin autēn, "that they might nourish her") — a common Greek way of naming an action without the acting person; in 12:14 passive (hopou trephetai, "where she is nourished"). Both forms keep the nourishing hand out of view. That is not vague but telling: it is the grammar of the manna, which lay on the ground each morning "with no sender" (Exodus 16). The name man itself comes from the question man hu, "what is that?" (Exodus 16:15) — the bread was literally the nameless one. Well-documented (the grammatical observation and the manna background).

Two facts from the manna story carry this chapter. (1) The lesson. Deuteronomy 8:2-3 interprets the manna expressly: it taught "that man does not live by bread alone, but by everything that comes out of the mouth of YHWH" — dependence, not self-supply. (2) The impossibility of hoarding. Exodus 16:19-20: hoarded manna "bred worms and stank"; it had to be gathered fresh daily (with the Sabbath exception, 16:22-26). The keeping of the woman is thereby marked as daily provision from God's hand, not a laid-in store. That the nourishing of the woman follows this pattern (manna-type, hidden Giver, no cache) is a weighed reading, strongly carried by the trephō-grammar and the Exodus-16 background. (A popular modern notion that literal stores would have been laid in for the end-time flight stands expressly outside this: the text points not to a cache but to manna.)