Chapter 12

In One Breath: This Far

The four psalms in one breath — this far

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At the building of the world there was an audience.

It does not stand on the first page of Scripture; it stands in an answer God gives centuries later, out of a storm, to a man on an ash-heap who has lost too much to ask cautiously any longer — where were you, when I founded the earth? — and whoever reads that answer hears no reproach in it, rather something like longing: a voice that grows warm as it describes a first morning. For what is described there is a building site. Measures are determined. A measuring cord is stretched out over what is as yet nothing. Plinths sink down, a cornerstone is set, and it goes as it goes with every house built with love: carefully, in order, with a hand that knows what it is doing. And around that foundation pit, along the edge of the deep, stand beings from before the first morning, and they do not stand there in silence. While the plinths sink and the cornerstone comes into place, the morning stars together raise the jubilation and all the sons of God shout aloud — and the cry that rises there is no polite applause of guests at a distance: it is the shout with which an army hurls itself upon the enemy and a people welcomes its king, one and the same cry, somewhere between war and coronation. The earth is laid amid the din of battle. It is not set down; it is welcomed in, as a king is welcomed in.

And the audience of the first morning receives nothing.

For heaven, says the song that sings of this, is the work of fingers — moon and stars set as a jeweller sets stones, each brought to its own place with the tips of the fingers, the greatest thing that exists handled as the finest thing that exists. And when that unimaginably immeasurable thing is finished, when the universe hangs and gleams and needs nothing more, the Maker does something no morning star could have reckoned on: He goes down on his knees. He picks up dust. Of all the material on the entire site it is the only one without a shape and without a will of its own; it did not gleam when the stars began to gleam, and it did not sing along when the morning stars sang. It merely lay there. That is what He takes into his hand. He forms it as a potter forms, patiently, with both hands, and then He bends lower, lower than a potter ever needs to bend, so low that his mouth touches what He has formed — and He breathes. The first thing a human ever received is breath from God's own mouth. The dust rises up. Something looks back. And to this creature, fresh from the field, still warm from the hands that formed it, God speaks — the first word ever addressed to a human being, and it is no warning and no set of instructions; it is a blessing, and in the blessing lies at once an office: be fruitful, fill the earth, and rule.

Thousands of years later a shepherd lies on his back in the night grass, far from any lamp, the flock breathing around him, and he weighs the distance between what hangs above him and what he himself is: when I see your heaven, the work of your fingers, the moon and the stars that You have set in place — what is man, that You are mindful of him, the son of man, that You look upon him? It is an honest question, perhaps the most honest a person can ask beneath a starry sky, and the night above him proves it right: whoever looks up long enough feels himself shrink. And then his song, against that shrinking, sets down the weightiest line ever written about dust: with honour and glory You crown him. In the opening lines of the song the glory still lies above the heavens, where it belongs; four lines on, that same splendour lies like a crown on a head of field soil. God has crowned the dust with something from his own wardrobe. And He did not leave it at the crown: everything You have set under his feet — the work of his own hands, given into the stewardship of the only thing on the site that did not sing along.

No flame is called to rule. No wind is set on a throne. The beings that raised the war-shout at the foundation pit, splendid as they are, have not been given the kingdom; a letter from the first century speaks the final word on it, dry and definitive: it was not to angels that He subjected the world to come.

This is the first thing to be told about this God, and everything that follows hangs upon it: He stoops. Whoever has once seen Him go down on his knees for a handful of field soil is astonished at nothing of what still comes — only silent.


Then the crowned one of the sixth day stands among the trees of the garden, and he hides himself.

It is toward the wind of the day, the cool hour at which he otherwise walked out to meet the voice — until yesterday that was the course of his life, as natural as breathing. Now the trees rustle, and the voice that sounds through them is searching for him, and what it asks is the first question God ever put to a human being: where are you? And the bearer of honour and glory, the man to whom a world had been given in stewardship, has precisely one thing left to report about himself: I heard You, and I was afraid, because I am naked. Afraid, and naked. There is nothing more left.

The verdict strikes the ground from which he was taken: thorns and thistles it shall bring forth for you; in the sweat of your face you shall eat bread; dust you are, and to dust you shall return. The field that bore him turns against him; the bread grows heavy with toil; the end is a return journey. And on the east side of the garden cherubim are set, with the whirling flame of the sword — the same kind of beings that raised the war-shout at the foundation pit now stand with drawn sword between the uncrowned one and the tree of life. What first shouted for joy now stands guard.

But about the crown itself the verdict says not a word. Nothing is reclaimed, nothing surrendered, nothing solemnly taken away; no hand picks it up to give it to a worthier one. It lies where the man left it: unclaimed.

After the gate Scripture gives a genealogy, and as it is read it changes in nature. It opens each time the same — he lived so many years, and he begot — and it closes each time the same: and he died. And he died. And he died. Eight centuries, nine centuries; the numbers grow dizzying, and the ending is no different for it; what began as a family tree turns out halfway to be a register of the dead, page after page the same sound, like a door that falls shut again and again. Centuries later an apostle picks out the verb to go with it, and it is a royal word: death has reigned, from Adam on. On the sixth day a ruler had been appointed, with everything beneath his feet; ever since, something reigns over him, and it asks no permission and holds no consultation and keeps no office hours. It only collects.

And God? God writes a law. Long before a single field in the promised land had been sold — the people still stand in the wilderness, the land is still promise, there is as yet nothing to lose — He lays ready a provision for when things go wrong. Land is not, with Him, definitively for sale, says that law, and it also says why: the land is Mine, and you are strangers and sojourners with Me. And for the interval, for the years in which a man loses his inheritance to debt and misfortune and dry summers, there is an office: the redeemer. When your brother grows poor and sells something of his possession, his redeemer shall come, his nearest kinsman, and redeem what his brother has sold. And the law adds precisely who may do this — not the richest man in the village, not the first well-meaning benefactor with money enough: someone from the flesh of his flesh. First the kinship, then the deed; whoever is not of the blood may not close the purchase, however full his purse. The buying-back is arranged before anything was lost. And the buyer must be family.

That is no subordinate clause in this story. That is the route.


Meanwhile a chamber has been opened where the assembly is never again adjourned.

It has had a thousand addresses in the course of the centuries. A plain in the land of Shinar, where the people called to one another: come, let us make bricks — come, let us build ourselves a city, and a tower with its top in the heavens. A palace on the Nile. A council chamber where tonight, at this hour, the light is still burning. The addresses change, the languages change, the minute-takers die and are replaced; the agenda does not. There has only ever been one item on it.

The second song of the Psalter describes that chamber from within, and it opens with a question in which the bewilderment is still audible: why do the nations throng together? The Greek translators heard horses in that thronging — snorting, whinnying, hoofbeats at a mustering-place, the restless stamping of an army that must wait — and beneath it, lower, a muttering: the persistent murmuring of those who are plotting something. And what they murmur, says the song, is emptiness. The kings of the earth take their stand, in battle array, as one takes one's stand for a pitched battle; the rulers ground themselves together — the verb of one who lays a foundation, and whoever lays a foundation means to stay. Then the assembly is given the floor, and the motion already lies on the table; it need only be read out: let us tear apart their bonds, and cast their cords from us.

This is how the chamber experiences the rule of heaven: as rope on the skin, as something that chafes and cuts and must come off. And in a prophet there stands, almost in passing, amid the judgements, what those cords in truth are. I drew them with cords of men, God says there, with ropes of love, and I was to them like one who lifts the yoke from their jaws, and I reached them food to eat. The rope that is yanked at to break free is the rope along which, all those centuries, the food came.

The first description of God in the song is not a statement but a posture: He who sits enthroned in the heavens laughs. Below, all is motion — falling in, thronging together, laying foundations, tabling motions; above sits Someone, and He does not rise. Whoever must rise before a threat acknowledges it; whoever remains seated has weighed it. And in that laughter there is no cruelty and no uncertainty; there is a date in it, and another song all but names it: the Lord laughs at him, for He sees that his day is coming.

Then He speaks. One sentence, and it stands in the perfect tense:

"And Í — I have cast my king, upon Zion, my holy mountain."

Cast — the word of the metal, of the smith who fills the mould and waits until the set metal no longer yields. The assembly amends and votes and adjourns, and after the recess convenes again; above stands the casting already, completed before the debate was opened, and whoever strikes it breaks his hand. And over against the us and the them of the chamber God sets twice the same little word, and it is the gentlest and the most immovable word of the whole scene: my king, my holy mountain.

And then the Cast One himself takes the floor, and what He reads out is the deed of his own appointment: I will proclaim the decree — YHWH said to me: my Son are you; I have this day begotten you. No plan of conquest, no war-report; a word of birth. And the second line of the deed is no command but an invitation, more homely than anything ever deliberated below: ask of Me, and I will give the nations as your inheritance, and the ends of the earth as your possession. The nations — the same ones thronging and snorting below — are promised to the Son, by decree, with the ends of the earth thrown in. He need only ask for them.


But first God sings a love song.

So the prophet announces it himself — I will sing for my beloved a song of my dear one about his vineyard — and then comes the story, simple as a harvest song, the kind of song sung in the orchards while the baskets filled. A man had a vineyard, on a fertile hill. He dug it over and cleared the stones out of it — by hand it goes, stone by stone, bent over, a whole season long; whoever has ever cleared a field of stones knows how much love lies in that one line. He planted the noblest vine. He built a tower in the middle, to watch over what was still to come, and he hewed out a winepress in the rock — a winepress, before a single cluster hung there: so sure was he of the harvest, so far did his hope run ahead of the facts. And he expected grapes, and the vineyard brought forth stinking grapes. He expected justice, and behold: bloodshed; righteousness, and behold: an outcry — in the language of the song each pair differs by a single stroke of the pen, as though the good and the horrific had drawn near each other down to the letter and at the last silently changed places.

Centuries later, in the last week of his life, a second Singer stands in the temple, and He chooses the same song. The hearers know it from the first line — they stiffen already at the vineyard on the fertile hill — and He sings it on, past the place where the prophet fell silent. The owner, He tells, leased out the vineyard and departed, and when the time of the fruits had come, he sent a servant for his share of the harvest. The first servant is beaten and sent back empty-handed. The second is wounded in the head. The third is killed. And many others — the story gives up counting them — against an owner who keeps on sending, against every reckoning of loss, and Scripture has for that sending its own, touching expression, the image of one who cannot sleep for longing: rising early and sending, day after day, because He had compassion on his people.

And then comes the sentence in which all of God's heart lies open:

"He had one more: a beloved son. Last of all he sent him to them, saying: they will respect my son."

No army. No bailiff. He had one more, only one, and he sends him — onto the same yard where the messengers shed their blood, along the same road, through the same gate, unarmed. Whoever knows the world hears a miscalculation in that sentence. Whoever knows God hears in it the last hope.

The tenants make no mistake about who is arriving there; their eyes are good, and that is precisely the terrible thing. This is the heir. Come, let us kill him, and the inheritance will be ours. In the Greek Bible that resolve is word for word the resolve of Joseph's brothers at Dothan, when they saw the bearer of the robe approaching from afar — without a single letter different it stands there, as though the chamber in all those centuries had not managed to draw up a new motion. Only: Joseph came out of the pit alive. Years later he stood, ruler over Egypt, weeping before the men who had sold him, and what he said was accusation and embrace at once, without a seam between them: I am Joseph, your brother, whom you sold; come to me. The guilt spoken in full, and the arms open, in one breath.

The tenants seize the son, kill him, and throw him outside the vineyard. There the parable ends, and it ends hard: with a body outside the wall, in the open field. And the gap where it breaks off the Narrator fills himself, calmly, with a line from a psalm, spoken to men who understand exactly what He is saying: the stone that the builders rejected, it has become the cornerstone.


The night before the cross the accusation does not come together.

There are witnesses enough — they are brought forward, one after another, and they contradict one another; and the accused says nothing, for hours nothing, while the trial around Him grinds to a halt in its own contradictions. Then the high priest stands up and does what still remains to him: he adjures Him by the living God — tell us whether You are the Christ, the Son of God. And then He speaks, for the first time that night, and in the one sentence He says two Scripture passages lie slid over each other like the leaves of a single hinge: from now on you will see the Son of Man seated at the right hand of the Power — and coming on the clouds of heaven. The sitting of the one oracle, the coming of the other vision, folded together into one future, spoken before a court in the dead of night. The high priest tears his garments — he of all men, the one man in Israel whom the law expressly forbids it — and the word he chooses for what he has heard is blasphemy.

For what is He condemned? For a seat. For the claim that He will go and sit where the divine oracle sets someone down.

Then Golgotha. And there the assembly of the old song comes off the paper, with full name and surname. A praying house-congregation recognizes, weeks later, the psalm in what has happened, and fills in the names aloud: truly, they are gathered in this city against your holy Servant Jesus — Herod and Pontius Pilate, with the nations and the tribes of Israel. The kings of the earth and the rulers, in full number, for once truly in full number, at one address. And in one breath follows the sentence that only faith dares to write down: they did all that your hand and your counsel had beforehand determined. The murder from the council room and the decree of Zion coincide at the same hour, on the same hill, and of the two it is the decree that keeps the direction.

At the noon hour it grows dark, and the darkness remains lying over the land, like something that has weight. Somewhere in that darkness the Crucified prays aloud, and what He prays is no cry that escapes Him but the opening line of the song of Golgotha, the song that had waited for this for centuries: my God, my God, why have You forsaken me? The crown He wears is plaited from thorns — from the curse of the field itself, the first thing the cursed ground ever brought forth, now bound together around the head of its bearer, as though the earth were permitted to lay all its old ache on that one head. And then, with vinegar on his lips, one word: it is finished. A curtain tears, from top to bottom — from above, where no human hand can reach — and the earth quakes.

The Heir lies outside the vineyard. The assembly has carried out its agenda item.


And then the song of Golgotha turns.

In the middle of the psalm, without transition, without a single blank line, the suffering ceases and something else begins; whoever reads it through arrives at that turn as at a door standing open where a wall was expected. And the first word on the other side is a proclamation — the same rare I-will-proclaim with which in the council room the deed was read out, the same solemn opening, but the address is new:

"I will proclaim your Name to my brothers; in the midst of the congregation I will sing your praise."

Brothers. The word sounds in none of the four royal songs; no throne room uses it, no deed, no oath, no coronation protocol. It stands in the middle of the song of the cross, on the first line after the suffering — there, and nowhere else. Brothers this King has only on the other side of death, because there He has earned them; the word is bought, and the price stands in the verses that precede it.

And on the morning of the resurrection, in the garden, in the early light beside the opened tomb, his first message is precisely that new word. To a weeping woman, Mary of Magdala, who through her tears took Him for the gardener until He spoke her name — one name, and the world stood upright again — He says: go to my brothers. A letter later weighed the full weight of it, slowly, word by word: He is not ashamed to call them brothers. And that sentence has a reverse side, and it may be said aloud, precisely here: there was something to be ashamed of. And He did not.


Then He ascends, and heaven performs a coronation.

Israel once saw one, and never forgot how it sounded. An old king on his deathbed gave the command, and the procession went down, down the hill: Solomon on the king's mule — the mount itself was already half the message — to the water of the Gihon; there the horn of oil, and the oil over his head, and then the ram's horn; and up, back up the hill, with all the people behind him, playing on flutes, with a joy so great that the earth split open from their sound. On the far side of the hill, at that same hour, Adonijah sat at his own coronation feast, with his guests and his plans, and the din came rolling over the hill, and one sentence made every plate on that table cold: and moreover Solomon has taken his seat on the throne of the kingdom. No one had fought. No sword had been drawn and no gate forced; someone had merely gone and sat down — and all the guests rose trembling, and each went his own way.

That same movement is performed by a letter that does not even take the time to greet. No sender, no address, no benediction; whoever unrolls it falls into the middle of a sentence already under way and with momentum: God, who in many portions and in many ways spoke of old to the fathers in the prophets, has in the last of these days spoken to us in a Son. And then the writer sets up no argument; he proves nothing, he asserts nothing. He does something else, something older: he lets God speak, seven times in a row, word after word, with between the words only the question that carries everything — for to which of the angels did He ever say? — and no one interrupts God. My Son are you; I have this day begotten you — the deed from the council room, read out here first, as though the letter knew where everything began. I will be to him a Father, and he shall be to Me a Son. And let all the angels of God worship Him — Someone is being led in, and the whole court goes down on its knees. He who makes his angels winds, and his servants a flame of fire — the court itself, however splendid, is weather and fire, deployable and passing, to be kindled and to be quenched. Then the turn, and the letter marks it itself: but to the Son — your throne, O God, is forever. To the angels He says: wind. To the Son He says: O God. Then the word in which creation itself is folded up like linen: like a mantle You will roll them up, the heavens, the work of your hands; they will perish, but You remain. And then the seventh, the closing word of the series, the command that no angel ever heard and no angel ever will hear:

"Sit at my right hand, until I make your enemies a footstool for your feet."

And the Son sits.

In that house no one had ever sat down. There stood no chair in the sanctuary; every priest did his service standing, day after day, year in and year out, generation after generation, the same sacrifices — standing, because no sacrifice was ever the last one; whoever stands is still at work. This One, after a single sacrifice, sat down forever. The posture is the message: no one needs to stand any longer.

And then the letter does one more thing, and it is perhaps the tenderest thing it does: it reads in an eighth word, and it is no divine oracle. It is the song of the shepherd in the night grass — in its form a prayer; it asks and it crowns, and it explains nothing. The letter lays it upon Him, and first honestly concedes what every reader had long known: as yet we do not see that everything is subjected to him. Every writing that promises a crown to one who buries a child, and hushes up the "not yet," is lying; not this letter. The word it chooses is a word of time — not yet — and then the sentence turns: but we see Jesus, crowned with honour and glory because of the suffering of death. Honour and glory — precisely the two words that on the sixth day were laid on a head of dust, found again here on the one head that has willed to be lower than all other heads. The crown of the first morning does not rest on a head that seized it. It rests on a head that has known thorns.


And then there stands, in the very middle of the command itself, that one word. Until.

Here stands whoever reads this. Between "sit at my right hand" and the footstool lies in the text a single word of two syllables, and into that word nineteen centuries have vanished: every emperor and every empire that fancied itself invincible and whose name must now be learned; every persecution and every revival; every generation that thought itself the last, and that has been buried by a next one that thought the same. It is the longest comma in history, and the sentence is not yet finished.

But a comma is not a full stop. The psalm itself set it down thus, with open eyes: a King, seated in an unfinished world, with the enemies still standing and history still in motion — and a span of time that has an end, though no one knows its length. An apostle let the contract stand undiminished, with all its tension in it: He must reign as king, until He has put all the enemies under his feet; the last enemy to be abolished is death. There is a clock in that sentence. It runs, even now, at this hour; no man wound it up, and no man can stop it.

And the waiting up there is no silence, no motionless counting-down behind a closed door. The same divine oracle that commanded the sitting carries an oath, and the oath comes with an assurance that oaths seldom need: YHWH has sworn, and He will not repent: you are a priest forever, after the order of Melchizedek. The Seated One has entered no sanctuary made by human hands but heaven itself, to appear now before the face of God — for us. Now. Not then, not later. At this very moment, while this page lies open and outside ordinary life simply goes on, Someone is speaking there for his own — Someone who does not grow weary; who at the end of no service is relieved, because there is no end of service and no successor is needed; who does not die: He lives always to plead for them. Always; it stands there without reservation, and it is the only "always" a human being can bear.

That is the comma: the breathing of a King who sits because the work is done, and waits because the Father will do the final laying. Whoever lives within it lives between a finished sacrifice and an announced footstool, with an Advocate above him and an "until" that grows shorter with every day that passes.



TEXTUAL REGISTER — movements 1 to 8

These two chapters carry no footnotes, deliberately: it is one passage and it must not be held up. But everything in them is accounted for elsewhere in this book — and can be traced here. The movements follow the blank lines; the passages stand in order of appearance.

1 · The foundation pit and the crown. Job 38:4-7 · Psalm 8:3 · Genesis 2:7 · Genesis 1:28 · Psalm 8:4 · Psalm 8:5 · Psalm 8:1 · Psalm 8:6 · Hebrews 2:5. (Chapter 1)

2 · The uncrowning. Genesis 3:8-10 · Genesis 3:18-19 · Genesis 3:24 · Genesis 5 (the genealogy) · Romans 5:14, 17 · Leviticus 25:23 · Leviticus 25:25 · Leviticus 25:49. (Chapter 2)

3 · The council room. Psalm 2:1 · Genesis 11:3-4 · Psalm 2:2 · Psalm 2:3 · Hosea 11:4 · Psalm 2:4 · Psalm 37:13 · Psalm 2:6 · Psalm 2:7 · Psalm 2:8. (Chapter 3)

4 · The vineyard and the Son. Isaiah 5:1-7 · Mark 12:1-5 · Jeremiah 7:25 and 2 Chronicles 36:15 · Mark 12:6 · Mark 12:7 (= Genesis 37:20 in the Greek text, word for word) · Genesis 45:4 · Mark 12:8 · Psalm 118:22. (Chapter 4)

5 · The trial and the cross. Matthew 26:59-64 (Psalm 110:1 and Daniel 7:13 in one sentence) · Leviticus 21:10 · Matthew 26:65 · Acts 4:27-28 · Psalm 22:1 · Genesis 3:18 · John 19:30 · Matthew 27:51. (Chapters 4 and 5)

6 · The resurrection and the new word. Psalm 22:22 · John 20:17 · Hebrews 2:11-12. (Chapter 4)

7 · The ascension and the seven words. 1 Kings 1:33-40 · 1 Kings 1:46 · Hebrews 1:1-2 · Hebrews 1:5 (Psalm 2:7 · 2 Samuel 7:14) · Hebrews 1:6 (Deuteronomy 32:43) · Hebrews 1:7 (Psalm 104:4) · Hebrews 1:8-9 (Psalm 45:6-7) · Hebrews 1:10-12 (Psalm 102:25-27) · Hebrews 1:13 (Psalm 110:1) · Hebrews 10:11-12 · Hebrews 2:6-9 (Psalm 8:4-6). (Chapter 5)

8 · The comma. Psalm 110:1 · 1 Corinthians 15:25-26 · Psalm 110:4 · Hebrews 9:24 · Hebrews 7:25. (Chapters 5, 6 and 9)